I've been raped by several people in my life starting when I was a young boy by my grandfather. It crushed me. I felt like I moved from victim status to survivor status when I finally told my family about my grandfather when I was in my teen years and we got him thrown in jail. But, I've been getting raped at random by strangers since I was 23 years old. I guess I've become numb to it now. I don't want to accept that this is my life or that I came into existence for other people's pleasure but I don't know what else to think. I've been raped at a hotel in my sleep by two different guys that I didn't even know after I took a sleep aid, raped over a sink in a public bathroom while I was washing my face and had soap in my eyes, raped on the side of I-95 by a state trooper, raped by a crazy serial rapist that was actually on the news and is currently serving time for the rape of three women in Maryland... I don't know why this keeps happening to me. I do the best I can to live a normal life but nothing about this is normal.
