One Year Later -or- My Love/Hate Relationship With RB

[mifje]

Originally Posted by theDarkOne

Hey we joined at the same time....

It's funny.When i first came here i was all about the movies.I never even went into Idle or Rowdy.Now one year later it's the reverse.I come here for the people and just some times the movies....I to have gotten into it with people and im never proud of that but the good people i have met here(like yourself) keep me coming back.

To all of my RB friends,i salute you

For me the same thing... I do DL movies still but most time I spent is on the idle section... Strange that things chance in time...

[SugarT]

I agree, I was very suprised to find a board like this, when I stumbled across it I was directed to the movie posts, I thought shit! this will be a mad site with spam and pop ups etc.

When I read some posts I was amazed that it was not made up of nutters like many porn forums are.

The women posters impressed me the most tho, at first I thought they were guys bu I can she for sure women post here, very interesting to hear there feelings.

[dark_d3viant]

I'm very impressed by this thread Sierra! and well said .

When I discovered RB, I'd been having repressed rape-based urges & fantasies throughout my teenagehood & early adulthood. I could only think that I must be fucked up for thinking such things back then, that maybe I was losing it or that I was a sick pervert. It almost came out once in RL, but the flame was quickly snubbed by a neanderthal ex-boyfriend who was about as adventurous sexually as a baked bean.

By the time I'd met my lifetime partner, he saw through my attempts to hide my sexual side & secret desires and encouraged me to explore. I felt very alone in thought though.. and searching for rape boards or forums conjoured up thoughts of boards full of angry, violent real-life rapists. I wasn't sure at first, it was a bit like putting my foot into the water for the first time. And I'm so glad I did.

Rapeboard was the first to come up, and the first wheel set in motion. I felt so much pressure released within the first month, and suddenly not so alone in my desires. Rapeboard re-lit my fire.

I'm not around so much any more, for several reasons.

A few of the members here when I joined have since left, there has been drama after drama and sometimes I thought of just jacking it in for good. A few of those members are still around, and of course some newer members who have joined & increased the good atmosphere.. but every now & then I notice someone says something and it all goes tits up again. I mean just things going on between people being aired, it's good to air the anger but sometimes it just gets a bit too much. I don't want to say the wrong thing half the time and start off another feud or add to one.

Lots of spam and people signing up just to wind up the majority or post disrespectful pics..

Then of course personal problems clashed with my fantasies and RB time..relationship problems.. and the terrible rape fantasy droughts.. etc.

On the plus side, RB allowed me to develop those sexual tastes further and further and I now feel like I know myself well enough sexually to be more confident, and to roleplay in a comfortable and safe environment.. now I'm more aware of my limits. I think without reading so much on here of others experiences, I'd have given up the first time I had to use the safeword. I've also benefited from the shared ideas and thoughts.

I remember it being much friendlier around here for a while, and then not so. I think maybe it's just not the same board I joined back then. I've since found newer pastures but still visit RB from time to time & catch up..

to RB, in sickness and in health!!

xx

edited to say: Jesus H Christ, on the 28th of this month I will have been signed up to RB for 2 yrs!!

[luvdozer]

I have had rape fantasies all of my life. Since I am also a feminist and a liberal, I always felt guilty about those fantasies and never spoke of them to anyone. from time to time, I would search variations of rape on the internet and would come across crude homepages with a few dark stories - many of them ended up more on the snuff side or were pay sites, so i never returned. Mainly, I got the impression that these sites were real rapists who hid behind a label of "fantasy"

A few years ago, I came across a competing forum to Rape Board. Soon thereafter, I discovered RB and a few other similar variants. These forums each have their own twist, but they share much in common.

I never thought there were so many guys out there that fantasized about rape, yet didnt want to actually hurt any woman. I knew that women fantasized about rape, but never knew so many did so as actively as they do. I also never knew that women who fantasize about rape go way beyond the folks who are deep in the Dom/sub world - I have some interest in BDSM, but could never get into it as a whole lifestyle.

Most others have said basically the same thing, but the amazing part for me is the idea that there could actually be a community of people who enjoy exploring this fantasy and actually care about eachother. It is a nice discovery

[Tanya]

I joined here at the end of 2005 (deleted my account and resigned up), I joined the now dead rapeclub at the end of 2004

I remember when i was around 13 and i would "yahoo" rape and read stories etc. I had alot more rape fantasies back then, even of being the rapist, i was orgasming from rape fantasies before I ever had sex.

I spent years sometimes looking for guys in yahoo chat rooms going in there and asking if anyone wanted to rape me, Thats the only way I would find guys to roleplay, i never found any boards.

I really did think i was pretty sick and abnormal. I was raped for real in 2001 when I was a virgin but i still had rape fantasies after a few years. I remember reading other rape survivors saying they had fantasies too and i told my psychologist and was suprised she thought it as pretty "normal"

I still remember when i found the old rapeclub. I was away in a hotel at a dancing comp and had a huge bitch fight and was alone in my bed and on my cell phone looking up rape stories, which I hadn't done for aaaaaaages. I discovered rapeclub and rapeboard and WOW. That day changed my life. I spent all night (i had my own room) reading stories etc from my cell phone.

Ever since I have med some great people. Learnt that there are alot of normal guys out there too that like rape play. Learnt i far from the only female that had realy been raped hanging around on the boards which was great...

There has definently been a hell of a lot of drama on all these rape boards. I know i have caused alot myself, but not for a while...

I had a crazy year from April 2006 to April 2007. I had still never had sex (except for being raped) and i remember I found a guy online to roleplay with when i went interstate to Perth in April that year. That was the BEST roleplay I ever did. It was sooooo realistic. If anyone had seen a video of it they probably woulda thought it was a real rape. I wrote about it in the rape stories forum "called My Hotel Room" and I posted pictures once but hey are gone now.

That set me off though I wanted more and didn't realize the first guy was fluke and I just got very lucky. I went and met quite a few others from online during that year and they were pretty much all assholes and I realized there are alot of assholes out there. One came in, took my bum cherry and left after 10 minutes (he was pretty good at beign a rapist though), one just obvioulsy hated women and took me to the middle of nowhere and bashed me up and I passed out and he left me there I really think out of these guys that say they want rape roleplay about 50% just want "rough sex" 40% are assholes who just hate women and will not give you any respect at all and do what they want and about 10% are genuine.

Because I had a really shitty experience with a guy I met online in 2007 and had to change my phone number and go to the police and shit and delete my account from here I have sort of gone a bit "off" roleplaying. I do still have fantasies though and I don't think they will ever go away, and I don't think I want them too.

So i had no sex or roleplay again since 2007 until early last year when I decided to roleplay again, I met a guy off this website and he was good until he tried to fuck me and couldnt get it up , so not sure if that even counts as sex hahaha.

So, i'm home alone this weekend (hardly ever happens) and i've been really horny and wanting to be raped. Haven't had sex for a long time and have a very tight cunt and ass and still can't find noone to rape me. hmmph

[Door'sunlocked_c'monin]

I'm still new so I don't have much reflection to give at this time but thus far I've been able to hold my own, enjoy various flows of conversations via PMs, and even a couple most private and intimate dialogs off the board.

This time next year, I'm sure I'll have my own opinion of my multiple experiences with this site.

[MADDOGMCMANAMAN]

Originally Posted by Door'sunlocked_c'monin

I'm still new so I don't have much reflection to give at this time but thus far I've been able to hold my own, enjoy various flows of conversations via PMs, and even a couple most private and intimate dialogs off the board.

This time next year, I'm sure I'll have my own opinion of my multiple experiences with this site.

Hey if that is your pic in your avvi then you are quite beautiful !!!

however i still think you should replace it with one of your tits !

[Door'sunlocked_c'monin]

Yes it's me.. I don't post pics of random people.. Thank you..

[snarkopo]

The ugly: On a more serious note, I have also met some ugly people on RB, and I don't mean physically. I have been threatened, insulted, berated, and belittled - then told that because no rules were broken nothing could be done. I have been stalked over several boards, been lied about and lied to and received at least one credible threat to my physical safety that scared me badly. In talking to other women on RB, I have realized that I am not the only gal who has received such treatment. It is, in fact, the norm. And you wonder why the ladies leave?

This is seriously fucked up. Not that I can think of how to prevent it but it pisses me off to hear it.