New girl on the board

[littleboxofsecrets]

Hi everyone! I am super excited to be here snd get myself off with like minded people and possibly get a few of you off. Honestly, at this point i prefer to just keep communication on the board and not through pm's...it can get too hectic. WARNING: YOU MAY NOT FIND MY DETAILS TO BE APPROPRIATE. Neither am I condoning anything. This is simply my story.

So, about me...I became sexually aware of my body around five. I learned quickly to spread my legs apart under the water faucet to create the most amazing feeling. As i look back at behaviors, I almost wonder if I was molested when I was too young to remember but remember the sensations. To be honest, it gets me extremely aroused to think i was. If so, I'd love the details, especially if it were incest. I played with my boobs (buds then) alot but I preferred there was pain so I used clothespins on my nipples. I was too young to know what a butt plug was yet I had the need to have something up my ass so I used tampons. It was extremely uncomfortable as to be expected yet it felt so damn good.

I also had a vivid imagination just not for the typical child. Mine involved being raped and in so many ways , I wanted to be someones toy, to be used and forced into acts. It feels like something I wish would've happened. Here I am an adult who still fantasizes about rape. Humiliation, multiple rapists, sex slavery, forced bondage, being bred, fucked by a dog in front of a huge audience...it all gets me wet. There's also an inner being who thinks I'm not to have a say over my body anyways, as if men have needs and it's my responsibility to spread my legs and let my ass and mouth be used as a cum dump. The fear if pregnancy and disease adds to the excitement.