The Dark Places of a 39 Year Old Single Mother - Rape Board

susansdarkplaces · 03-23-2008, 01:36 PM

It's strange to begin this, because these fantasies/nightmares are something I could never tell anyone directly. Especially when you are in a circle of polite, church-going society and you are emulating the same. But at night, the dreams come...well they started as dreams...nightmares really...working their way from subconscious to fantasy.

It's kind of consuming now, but with no real outlet, I came here. I did scrawl many of these dark things in notebooks I keep hidden, buried, unfindable by anyone but me. However, I found this forum, and it seems like a good place to air these black taboos.

After all, how can you tell the ladies at your church pot-luck that you have fantasies about your own daughter being abducted, thrown into the back of a very bad man's car, taken to a desolate place and...

It's even hard to say it here, but the pictures in my mind are vivid. I see these things clearly in all their horrible detail.

Things like being taken to a rape camp in a war savaged country, both my daughter and I...where an awful man uses her as leverage to make me do degrading things. I acutely feel my own sense of self loathing as my body betrays me and I orgasm when he rapes me. Like so many stupid romance novels I twistedly come to need him...his cock.

But...he rapes her as well...and I have to watch...to suffer it...to surrender to it...to masturbate to it.

This is an introduction to the dark things that writhe in my mind at night (sometimes, so inappropriately, in the day.) And to say I write them down without a horrible sense of guilt is a lie. But they are consuming, as I said,
and I have to vent them...I feel i have no choice.

But at least there are these places to talk about the terrible shadows which connect the violent and erotic.

Thanks,
Sue

yash77_7 · 03-23-2008, 03:02 PM

good

GeorgeDaBrute · 03-24-2008, 02:07 AM

now that sounds like a very evil mind ... how lovely

buffspanker · 03-24-2008, 12:43 PM

You are a dream come true for many men here, myself included. A well written intro.
You describe waht is to me the biggest turn on, using a daughter to make the mother do any sick, depreaved thing I can think of, making her orgasm against her ill, her own body betraying her. And her reward? She gets to go through it again with her daughter. She hates herself for liking it, yet, she can not seem to stop it.

dalisay · 03-24-2008, 02:12 PM

you aren't alone I to have thoughts and fantasies I feel so guilty about and would be shunned by my family if they knew. Which is worse then death to me.

robert25260 · 03-26-2008, 03:56 AM

That rape camp idea is great!
Write a story!!
Don't hold back!!!

shewasaskingforit · 03-26-2008, 10:04 PM

Very sexy fantasy.

vtxxxr · 04-22-2008, 09:18 PM

Very intriging....Thank you sue!!

Glen · 05-01-2008, 07:22 PM

You're not alone. I've chatted with a number of different mothers who have the same or quite similar fantasies. Dark, sure, and not for public broadcast but you're not the only one if that brings you any consolation. Relief, well...that's a different thing altogether.

hornytexan432 · 05-04-2008, 08:53 PM

Wow, that is so fucking hot! I'd call that a hell of an idea for a summer vacation, lol.

susansdarkplaces · 07-05-2008, 01:49 PM

Unfortunately I am consumed. I lose sleep. My nightmares awaken me when I see the things I see in the dark.

This is me.

Sometimes I feel I am unable to talk...in my dreams I cannot scream.

My email is susansdarkplaces@gmail.com

susansdarkplaces · 07-05-2008, 02:47 PM

I was a young girl when it happened: I remember her empty desk, the panic,
the endless do not walk home alone and do not talk to strangers speeches from my mom.

She was my age and she just disappeared. Just a few yards from the bus stop. It was the first time I had heard the word abducted.

It was in the newspaper and I remember there was a frantic thing happening all around.

But time passed and she was never found. No trace...like a big black hole in the earth had opened up and swallowed her whole.

In that time I heard things. One thing in particular which was spoken about in hushed tones over the telephone by my mom:

Somewhere near a dingy truck stop several miles away they found a piece of clothing discarded in a ditch. "It was no doubt they were hers ", my mom said.

It was her underwear, the ones she had worn that day, torn and crumpled on the side of that unforgiving highway.

I have been haunted by this ever since. It has taken my mind to terrible places...dark remote woods...a cold windowless cellar...

...the places where bad things happen.

And in my mind I never see his face, but I see the rest of him...The Dark Man...a big burly trucker...

...I can even see the large silver belt buckle he wears...

...and I see what he does...

I will never know what really happened to Jennifer and so in that void my mind plays out the horrible possibilities over and over again as I reel in my nightmares.

There was something so terrifyingly vulnerable I felt when I heard they had found her panties...

naked...alone...afraid...

..exposed to the monsters that lurked in the dark.

buffspanker · 07-09-2008, 03:45 PM

I for one am very glad you posted again

quagmirefx · 07-09-2008, 04:39 PM

Me too!

denrbco72 · 12-30-2008, 03:08 PM

Thanks for sharing. I anxiously await your return.

MADDOGMCMANAMAN · 12-30-2008, 09:51 PM

WOW SUSAN !!!!

please post a pic of your tits !!

LeParas · 12-30-2008, 10:31 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by MADDOGMCMANAMAN

WOW SUSAN !!!!

please post a pic of your tits !!

Think this thread is dead, she never posted something again.

barnabus_c2001 · 12-31-2008, 01:13 PM

Hopefully she will come back cause looks like us guys are interested.

susansdarkplaces · 12-09-2009, 04:48 PM

It has been a long while.

I think I had been rather rude too a number of you, starting conversations and then running away. Please know the jagged unease which these nightmares give me. But they are my shadow and they are an unshakable part of me.

I have found the e-mail to be a difficult thing, both emotionally and just keeping up with it. I think the best for me to do is to have an instant way to talk and then be able to cower if I need to just as instantly.

My yahoo messenger ID is: susansdarkplaces

I won't be on all the time but I will be on.

I know the monsters are out there, and I know I have now opened a door for them to terrify me.

But I will never escape them.

buffspanker · 12-09-2009, 06:47 PM

I will be contacting you soon.

03-23-2008, 01:36 PM	#1
susansdarkplaces Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 6 Reputation: 16	The Dark Places of a 39 Year Old Single Mother It's strange to begin this, because these fantasies/nightmares are something I could never tell anyone directly. Especially when you are in a circle of polite, church-going society and you are emulating the same. But at night, the dreams come...well they started as dreams...nightmares really...working their way from subconscious to fantasy. It's kind of consuming now, but with no real outlet, I came here. I did scrawl many of these dark things in notebooks I keep hidden, buried, unfindable by anyone but me. However, I found this forum, and it seems like a good place to air these black taboos. After all, how can you tell the ladies at your church pot-luck that you have fantasies about your own daughter being abducted, thrown into the back of a very bad man's car, taken to a desolate place and... It's even hard to say it here, but the pictures in my mind are vivid. I see these things clearly in all their horrible detail. Things like being taken to a rape camp in a war savaged country, both my daughter and I...where an awful man uses her as leverage to make me do degrading things. I acutely feel my own sense of self loathing as my body betrays me and I orgasm when he rapes me. Like so many stupid romance novels I twistedly come to need him...his cock. But...he rapes her as well...and I have to watch...to suffer it...to surrender to it...to masturbate to it. This is an introduction to the dark things that writhe in my mind at night (sometimes, so inappropriately, in the day.) And to say I write them down without a horrible sense of guilt is a lie. But they are consuming, as I said, and I have to vent them...I feel i have no choice. But at least there are these places to talk about the terrible shadows which connect the violent and erotic. Thanks, Sue

03-24-2008, 02:12 PM	#5
dalisay Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Vancouver Posts: 18 Reputation: 50	Hugs you aren't alone I to have thoughts and fantasies I feel so guilty about and would be shunned by my family if they knew. Which is worse then death to me.

03-26-2008, 03:56 AM	#6
robert25260 Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 65 Reputation: 2317	Rape camp That rape camp idea is great! Write a story!! Don't hold back!!!

03-26-2008, 10:04 PM	#7
shewasaskingforit Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 8 Reputation: 10	Very sexy fantasy. __________________ I'm the only one you love, I feel her heart beating my knife deep inside, her crotch is bleeding

05-01-2008, 07:22 PM	#9
Glen Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Posts: 1 Reputation: 10	You'd be surprised You're not alone. I've chatted with a number of different mothers who have the same or quite similar fantasies. Dark, sure, and not for public broadcast but you're not the only one if that brings you any consolation. Relief, well...that's a different thing altogether.

03-23-2008, 03:02 PM	#2
yash77_7 Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 1 Reputation: 10	good

03-24-2008, 02:07 AM	#3
GeorgeDaBrute Privileged Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: North of Kansas City KS Posts: 426 Reputation: 2180	now that sounds like a very evil mind ... how lovely

03-24-2008, 12:43 PM	#4
buffspanker Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 86 Reputation: 101	You are a dream come true for many men here, myself included. A well written intro. You describe waht is to me the biggest turn on, using a daughter to make the mother do any sick, depreaved thing I can think of, making her orgasm against her ill, her own body betraying her. And her reward? She gets to go through it again with her daughter. She hates herself for liking it, yet, she can not seem to stop it.

04-22-2008, 09:18 PM	#8
vtxxxr Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Posts: 52 Reputation: 134	Very intriging....Thank you sue!!

05-04-2008, 08:53 PM	#10
hornytexan432 Junior Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 5 Reputation: 10	Wow, that is so fucking hot! I'd call that a hell of an idea for a summer vacation, lol.

07-05-2008, 01:49 PM	#11
susansdarkplaces Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 6 Reputation: 16	I was afraid to come back... Unfortunately I am consumed. I lose sleep. My nightmares awaken me when I see the things I see in the dark. This is me. Sometimes I feel I am unable to talk...in my dreams I cannot scream. My email is susansdarkplaces@gmail.com

07-05-2008, 02:47 PM	#12
susansdarkplaces Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 6 Reputation: 16	The Root of It... I was a young girl when it happened: I remember her empty desk, the panic, the endless do not walk home alone and do not talk to strangers speeches from my mom. She was my age and she just disappeared. Just a few yards from the bus stop. It was the first time I had heard the word abducted. It was in the newspaper and I remember there was a frantic thing happening all around. But time passed and she was never found. No trace...like a big black hole in the earth had opened up and swallowed her whole. In that time I heard things. One thing in particular which was spoken about in hushed tones over the telephone by my mom: Somewhere near a dingy truck stop several miles away they found a piece of clothing discarded in a ditch. "It was no doubt they were hers ", my mom said. It was her underwear, the ones she had worn that day, torn and crumpled on the side of that unforgiving highway. I have been haunted by this ever since. It has taken my mind to terrible places...dark remote woods...a cold windowless cellar... ...the places where bad things happen. And in my mind I never see his face, but I see the rest of him...The Dark Man...a big burly trucker... ...I can even see the large silver belt buckle he wears... ...and I see what he does... I will never know what really happened to Jennifer and so in that void my mind plays out the horrible possibilities over and over again as I reel in my nightmares. There was something so terrifyingly vulnerable I felt when I heard they had found her panties... naked...alone...afraid... ..exposed to the monsters that lurked in the dark.

07-09-2008, 03:45 PM	#13
buffspanker Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 86 Reputation: 101	I for one am very glad you posted again

07-09-2008, 04:39 PM	#14
quagmirefx Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 50 Reputation: 1518	Me too!

12-30-2008, 03:08 PM	#15
denrbco72 Banned Join Date: Dec 2008 Posts: 29 Reputation: 293	Thanks for sharing. I anxiously await your return.

12-30-2008, 09:51 PM	#16
MADDOGMCMANAMAN PUSSYCRUSHER Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: YOUR MOMMAS HOUSE Posts: 2,161 Reputation: 9875	WOW SUSAN !!!! please post a pic of your tits !! __________________ The Original PUSSYCRUSHER !!

12-31-2008, 01:13 PM	#18
barnabus_c2001 Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 76 Reputation: 1208	Hopefully she will come back cause looks like us guys are interested.

12-09-2009, 04:48 PM	#19
susansdarkplaces Junior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Posts: 6 Reputation: 16	As Always It Is Unescapable It has been a long while. I think I had been rather rude too a number of you, starting conversations and then running away. Please know the jagged unease which these nightmares give me. But they are my shadow and they are an unshakable part of me. I have found the e-mail to be a difficult thing, both emotionally and just keeping up with it. I think the best for me to do is to have an instant way to talk and then be able to cower if I need to just as instantly. My yahoo messenger ID is: susansdarkplaces I won't be on all the time but I will be on. I know the monsters are out there, and I know I have now opened a door for them to terrify me. But I will never escape them. Last edited by susansdarkplaces; 12-09-2009 at 04:56 PM.

12-09-2009, 06:47 PM	#20
buffspanker Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 86 Reputation: 101	I will be contacting you soon.