Do you ever feel disgusted with yourself?

Yeah i had episodes like this once or twice early on, then i realised its just a sexual cliche or fetish, its normal and human, some are turned on my latex, some are turned on by coloured women, i am turned on by bondage and power play. Its all don't to being human.

[MADDOGMCMANAMAN]

DO YOU EVER FEEL DISGUSTED WITH YOURSELF ??

no not really !! although sometimes when i spit in my boss's tea at work i kinda think urrghhh !!

Originally Posted by MADDOGMCMANAMAN

DO YOU EVER FEEL DISGUSTED WITH YOURSELF ??

no not really !! although sometimes when i spit in my boss's tea at work i kinda think urrghhh !!

LOL, Man what wear you smoking last night.

[Rheostatic]

Originally Posted by MADDOGMCMANAMAN

DO YOU EVER FEEL DISGUSTED WITH YOURSELF ??

no not really !! although sometimes when i spit in my boss's tea at work i kinda think urrghhh !!

Hmmm, I think I'll have my secretary stop bringing me my afternoon tea, just in case.

[Paits]

To ask a secondary question, are there many people here with children? Because i am still fairly young and haven't been in a long term relationship yet, but one of my ultimate future fears is that later on in life i have kids abuse i them.

The thought absolutely sickens me, but what if something happened to make me lose control of my conscience.

[Sierra]

Originally Posted by Paits

... one of my ultimate future fears is that later on in life i have kids abuse i them.

The thought absolutely sickens me, but what if something happened to make me lose control of my conscience.

The abuse of children SHOULD sicken you. It should sicken each and every one of us.

If you have fears about losing control of yourself or thoughts of harming children in this way, you should seek help NOW. As you have no doubt realized, acting on these urges could ruin two lives - the child's and yours.

By the way, I salute you for recognizing a potential problem before anyone is harmed.

We do a lot of yapping and playing around here on this board, but all our roleplay occurs between consenting adults. That's why we come here.

[ego]

Yes, Sierra is right, go ask for help.
If you are not sure you can separate fantasy from reality, just dont make any children...

[cryptic]

Originally Posted by Kami

I've been turned on by the thought of rape since I was very young, before I even started masturbating. My first memory is when this TV program was on where an army woman got gang raped, which I saw by accident when walking into the living room. My mother told me it was horrible and whatever else, making me feel awful for being excited by such a thing.

As I've got older and gained access to the internet, my rape fetish has gotten stronger thanks to how easy it is to get porn. I have at times done things like my delete my entire porn collection out of feelings of disgust, later simply making a new one... I've stopped caring quite so much nowadays, though.

I'd never actually rape for real since, unlike the animals who do so, I care enough to know it fucks up lives. However, knowing that doesn't stop me thinking about how sick my mind must be for me to be turned on by rape when others are sickened by the thought of it.

Has anyone else ever felt the same way?

As a "victim", i know what it's like to feel guilty for my desires.
However, i don't believe that rape fantasies are an unhealthy thing. Quite the opposite, actually. i think that if you're honest with yourself to the point where you're willing to admit your desires, then you're on the right track to being a healthy, happy person.
Hell, i'm willing to bet that everyone has something about their sexuality they're not entirely proud of.
Accepting it as part of yourself is a big step towards making peace with who you are...and having these fantasies doesn't make you a bad person, believe me.

*stops smoking the peace pipe*

Bah...i don't know what i'm trying to say...apart from the fact that fantasies aren't a bad thing - and you can't control what's in your own head - so you shouldn't feel guilty about thoughts; as long as you don't actually hurt anyone, then fun is fun and everybody's happy.

[Branfish]

Originally Posted by Paits

To ask a secondary question, are there many people here with children? Because i am still fairly young and haven't been in a long term relationship yet, but one of my ultimate future fears is that later on in life i have kids abuse i them.

The thought absolutely sickens me, but what if something happened to make me lose control of my conscience.

I understand your concern, and if you are genuinely worried, you should seek help, but I think that you should take heart from the fact that you are worried about it, because that at least shows that you are a basically good person, and not an amoral abuser.

I used to feel guilty about my rape fetish, and still occasionally do, but now that I have a beautiful woman who encourages me in my fantasies and constantly reminds me that there's nothing wrong with them, I feel a lot better.

[CrashGirl]

I felt disgusted with myself for it, once. My best friend had just been raped (for real) by her crazy ex-boyfriend and she was crashing at my place for a few days. She was devastated. She just cried, and cried, and was very clingy with me.

I think that's when i realized, though, that my fantasies are just fantasies, and that I'd never subject another human being to that sort of pain and trauma. Yeah, when I fantasize about forced sex, it's hot, but when I'm holding my best friend in my arms and rocking her to sleep because of what she's just been through, it's not so hot at all.

[MARADONA]

Nope...