[JustSexToy]

1. Your gender and age?
Female, in my twenties
2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual?
Almost straight.
3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim?
Victim only.
4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies?
About 10-12 years, I don't know exactly. But even when I was 6, I had fantasies about being punished by spanking and humiliated.
5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...)
I guess I somehow sensed that my mother was raped as I always had very intense rape issues - both fantasies and phobia. But I "discovered" rape after reading a book.
6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child?
Nope.
7. Have you ever raped someone or been raped in real life?
It's complicated. Let's say yes but it would be a gangrape. It was more emotional thing than sexual but I was forced few times.
8. How often do you fantasize about rape?
Few times in every week, but sometimes I can think only about rape, rape and even more rape and sometimes being forced to sex is a part of my BDSM session fantasies.
9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize?
Usually yes, I do.
10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies?
Again - usually yes, I do. Or right after that.
11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating?
Yes, when they are really intense, my orgasms are so strong!
12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fanasies?
Usually my fantasies switch from rape to consensual BDSM and back again. Vanilla fantasies happen but they are really rare and weak – more relax.
13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know?
I fantasy mostly about my Master and, optionally, some strangers invited by him, when he is present and controls the whole situation. Sometimes after leaving Master’s place I am attacked by an anonymous guy who used me before, when I was blindfolded. Earlier I fantasized mostly about people I didn’t know.
14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape?
Both.
15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch?
I am always a victim.
16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Enjoyment of the rapist is mandatory. That is the point of rape!
17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
As I see being aroused during the rape as very humiliating, I would say that my suffering is pretty important.
18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.)
Bedroom, car, forest, living room, bathroom, office, basement.
19 What's your favorite typ of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirat, KKK men, etc. ..) or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILTF, business woman, nun, femal POW .....)?
Big men in their 40 or 50. Usually white, sometimes black. I like police officers and bosses.
20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)?
Soft only if I am used like a doll from sex shop - tied and exposed in one position, fucked, left and fucked again – or when this is the beginning of a gangrape, they hold me and touch everywhere, doing some comments about how I like it. But as I am almost a slave to my Master, this is not exactly rape for me. I prefer really rough rapes with slaps, kicking, breath control…
21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degradation?
They are connected. Could not resign from any of them.
22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screamimg etc
It happens sometimes, but right now it is not very important. It was very often, when I felt guilty because of my fantasies.
23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim?
Sometimes. Usually I have no chance.
24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc
It is. Shows who has the power!
25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ?
Yes, but those words are not very degrading for me. I often admit that I am a whore. I would love if my rapist found something that would make me feel really degraded, embarassed and then forced me to repeat this aloud.
26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up?
Cum is necessary. Man ends in my mouth or on my face... Optionally on my clothes.
27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Occasionally, and when it happens, it is part of DP or triple.
28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Always. So nicely humiliating.
29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Always. That is the reason why I have a pussy…
30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm?
Yes, caused both by forced masturbation and being stimulated by the rapist. Then commented.
31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies?
Important. I think always about big, fat dicks, those I cannot completely hide in my mouth.
32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last?
About one hour?
33. How do you feel after such a "session"
Tired, satisfied, relaxed, sleepy.
34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies?
Not at all. Now.
35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy?
My Master, of course, and some closest friends.
36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies?
My Master again.
37. Have you ever enacted a rape roleplay in real life?
Want it to happen.
38. Do you imagine yourselve or your victim to be tied up?
Yes, often.
39. Are there any celebrities or pornstars playing arole in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)?
No.
40. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly.
Usually I do not fantasy about things I definitely would NOT like to be played. And sometimes I fantasize about rape when I am unconscious.
Feel free to ask me privately if you want to know more.