[lonelywife]

1. Your gender and age? Female, mid 30's
2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual? Straight
3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim? The victim
4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies? For as long as I can remember I had victim fantasies - even before I was aware of sex. I wanted to play kidnapping victim or slave
5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...) Two things I can think of - a comic of a man chasing a woman around a room with rope, and (this is probably silly) a halloweed decoration of a male spide in a top hat approaching a cartoonishly female ladybug, wrapped up and bound in his web.
6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child? yes - though I don't know whether or not this preceded my rape fantasies
7. Have you ever raped someone or been raped in real life? No
8. How often do you fantasize about rape? Sometimes I binge on it and fantasize many times a day, but can go weeks with no such thoughts
9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize? sometimes
10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies? Sometimes, yes
11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating? Yes
12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fanasies? Usually rape or forced servitude
13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know? usually a stranger
14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape? usually one followed by the other
15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch? Always involved
16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important) very - although sometimes i fantasize he can't get off and blames me, causing lots more trouble
17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important) Very important
18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.) often an abandoned building or maybe a house in a suburban neighbourhood
19 What's your favorite typ of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirat, KKK men, etc. ..) or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILTF, business woman, nun, femal POW .....)? it depends on the situation
20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)? usually violent to gain compliance as I'm a struggler
21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degredation? the degredation usually - sex comes second
22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screamimg etc Yes
23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim? Mild struggling
24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc yes, until I'm fightened into silence or i realize that its pointless
25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ? absolutely - the more degrading the better
26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up? everywhere, especially in a gang situation
27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) Occasionally, but more often lately
28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) Always
29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never) Always
30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm? only if it goes into the humiliation factor - the rapist using my orgasm to justify his actions - proving that i enjoy it afterall
31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies? Not very
32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last? 15 mins or so
33. How do you feel after such a "session" depends if i can cum or not
34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies? yes
35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy? [COLOR="Red]no[/COLOR]
36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies? No
37. Have you ever enacted a rape roleplay in real life? [COLOR="Red"]no[/C0OLOR]
38. Do you imagine yourselve or your victim to be tied up? often
39. Are there any celebrities or pornstars playing arole in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)? not really
40. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly.