Introducing .. Lindsey
 

I am here for help dealing with this idea of mine of being raped. I want to meet someone ultimately but someone who I would not like or be attracted to .. someone who will use threats to blackmail to get me to allow him to brutalzie me. I dont want to enjoy it I dont want to be turned on by it ... and I hate the idea that I have these thoughts. I am 18 I have never really dated and I am from America. More specifics given when we talk a bit.

Welcome to RB. I'm sure you'll find some interesting people on here.

Thanks .. and just to note, I am willing to travel for this. Being away from home would probably even be better.